Wednesday, 10 April 2019

Never let it happen, please.

Today evening, i dreamt of a very, very, very sad occasion. I woke up with my eyes wet. Did i just cry in the real life too? Because, yes I cried a lot in the dream like, never ending sobbing.

I dreamt that I would never see Huda again in this world. At first, I just could not process the information so I just stand there doing basic daily routine without feeling anything. But then, there was one moment when I actually saw a familiar person in front of me, it was Huda. She was helping me with the routine with a very bright smile on her face.

Only then, I realised something. She helping me with the chores was not real. It was just her shadow that I saw.

Then, something crossed my mind. 'Am I never going to see that smile again ever?'

It hit me deeply. The next thing I knew was me sobbing. With that unclear mind.

 'I could not ever imagine a world without her in it'. Never can.


~10 April

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Aduh.

Sakitnya kan? Menangis dalam hati. Sampai no energy to talk to people. Tired. Drained. Feel like quitting.

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