Crying.

I am literally crying. Alhamdulillah Allah. May You ease my journey afterwards.

Only You know how much I want to be here. Thank you Allah. 

ps: hopefully i'll get better result in cie.

You.

Suddenly I miss you so very much. Suddenly I yearn for your company.

La Vie En Rose.

Is it?

My brain says that you are the best person in my life. Is it? I don't think so.

But I am not sure either if you are not.

Because you can never hold on to something that does not want to stay.

Sigh.

I bet she really hates me, huh! What is wrong with her?

I am dying. Sigh.

Mixed feelings.

So many things happened today. Don't really know what I am supposed to feel.

1. The event was a total disaster. I stuttered a lot. Like a lot. And the long pauses were really irritating. I was feeling sleepy, and was asleep for like a few minutes before I was called by the lady. And was blank, could not think of any fresh ideas. So shitty. 

2. I had a long walk to find the surau. Why on earth did they put it there? Tak nampak kut! Since I was wearing heels, my feet hurt like shit. I even had leg cramp!

3. The laksa was not so nice. And the seats by the window were all full, so could not much enjoy the relaxing view.

4. Finally, I tore his picture after keeping it in my wallet for a damn long heart-breaking year. The misery has finally ended. Congrats to dear self.