Today.

Today was amazing. Finally felt like breathing again and alive. No more suffocating. So relieving. 

I walked alone and freely in the middle of the city, bumping into the same old persons but strangers and foreigners. For hours, just as much as I needed it to be. 

So relaxing. To be at the right places at the right moment, and also to be wearing nice and pretty clothing. 

I smiled so brightly today, I even took few cute pictures ihiks.

I wanna smile like today, always. Think I can do that. 

Alhamdulillah Allah. 

ps: dont really wanna talk anything else dah. think i am so done already.

1, 2, 3..

Counting days.

No doubt.

Know what's worse than being left?

Leaving while you are still deeply in love. And the worst is watching him move on and forget and you are still holding on without him knowing.

And still hoping him finding his way back to me.

So soothing.

Talking to him. Whining to him. So comforting. At one point, I can smile even when I am having a hard time. So blessed to have him.

Love you, bruh.

And I also know, you would kill me had you know what I have been keeping from you, till now.

And him also. I have disappointed many. And here I am, still acting innocent when I am not. Sorry.

Allah forgive me.

Online.

Whenever I want to give up on you, you are always there. Always.

Or maybe not. Maybe it is just me. Sigh.

Still do.

This has been going on for far too long already. Still, it has not faded yet. Still.

15. Feb. It has been nearly a year, and still counting.