Monday, 2 April 2018

Mixed feelings.

So many things happened today. Don't really know what I am supposed to feel.

1. The event was a total disaster. I stuttered a lot. Like a lot. And the long pauses were really irritating. I was feeling sleepy, and was asleep for like a few minutes before I was called by the lady. And was blank, could not think of any fresh ideas. So shitty. 

2. I had a long walk to find the surau. Why on earth did they put it there? Tak nampak kut! Since I was wearing heels, my feet hurt like shit. I even had leg cramp!

3. The laksa was not so nice. And the seats by the window were all full, so could not much enjoy the relaxing view.

4. Finally, I tore his picture after keeping it in my wallet for a damn long heart-breaking year. The misery has finally ended. Congrats to dear self.

Aduh.

Sakitnya kan? Menangis dalam hati. Sampai no energy to talk to people. Tired. Drained. Feel like quitting.